I included everyone Just look for you

WHY. i hate you so much. i do really. the inner turmoil i feel with you. To me, to Gabe, to be at constant knick nacking of the why of how it works thats really the essence in me. I have come to beleive that true philophers have come to define themselves more pure than anynore. through this knowlegde of self they expanded. These men wise men SAT and contemplated life, perhaps the first level of higher middle class. its funny how soceity evoles, im not talking about humans im not talking about the evolution of our soceity, history.

It is not presently 12:28 at this very moment. i am late in this assignment. I INCLUDE THIS IN MY BLOG AND HOLD IT TO BE VAILD TO ALL PHILOSHPERS! TO KAUNT. TO OUR PROFESSOR. TO ANSLEM (why do we all have trouble remembering his name? me as inlcuded)

i seem to be random, going off in tangents, But today i decided to let it go. Let it go wild, haha, forget what the conservative chirstian thinks, this is college. No no dont get mad, i doubt you wrong, just not right. i am agnostic, as to say That I believe in what is proven. Show me an angel an I as believe in him. (its ok that the professor pointed at me when saying anteist I understand why, that is the argument I was holding up in class. But hold it is only I persona I take on as in to say this is the correct way to argue GOD, because religion in itself is so powerfully argued with NO bases. I recall a quote “it is a wise man he who invented god” that is all on this GOD subject.
I WANT REAL. I will let this go. Who it to say, respectively to stop. I wonder what happen to those people in our class that started and now don’t go? I wonder. They must of dropped the class. Ya or maybe they fell out of existence. LOL j/k. ( LOL j/k mean laugh out loud to the professor cuz ur older so you might not know. BUT YOU LOOK MODERN so I bet you know. I’d bet my dogs life on it. Oh… no there I go another tangent.
I WANTED TO DEFINE THIS WORLD IN SCIENCE. And it most ways I still do. But this class has taught me that science is no truth. Hahahahahahhahahahahahhahahahahahhahah lets believe in God next.
But enough of that God and Science stuff! Although BRI holds FAITHFULLY AND RELENTENTLY TO HER FAITH THROUGHOUT OUR CLASS I BELIEVE SHE (respectively) HAS FELT THE MOST DIRECT ATTACK UPON BELEIFS. This directly confronts everything she bleives everything anyone believes.
But I come off from that tangent again… see let me explain…
Right now in this blog im IN CLASS. This is my mind talking. WE’RE IN CLASS NOW THE PROFESSOR IS TALKING.
Wow, I just flicked my pen I dropped it and it hit my nose.
The professor makes a sly but subtle jokes about soccer players. He must like david beckham. I look at the soccer girls, but only because the must get soccer jokes, they don’t seem to laugh. Maybe they didn’t get the joke I think, I like david beckham. I think these soccer girls are smart. Really smart. They have not faulted in any arguements they've made. people have. not them. i wonder, are they nuetral or get it?

Whoa look at my shoe it’s a converse. Converse. Conversating. Conversion. I mess with this word and think what makes it so great. I like my shoe. Cool SHOE. I think everyone should own a pare of converse. As I think this I look up I see that there are over three pare of converse in our class at almost any given time. Damn, did I make that up? The sentence or the shoe statement? Samething, no. if no p then no q remember.

I snap back to the professor talking. The left side where I sit but the the left seems so quite. Always. IM always waiting the the guy (I know his name) to just burst out with the most smartest sh*t I’ve ever heard. (yes I said sh*t, we’re in college.)
I keep saying we’re in college not to sound amusing but to specify that college is when you learn about yourself challenge your belief its here we become these wise men, (or woman if discrimination against woman philosophers hadn’t been applied)

I silence myself now much like Germey. All of them. They are all quite. But they know. I know they know, but more legitamitely the professor knows. I mean hey this is just a blog the professor holds our grade.
I sit back farther and look at the rest. The rest out number the men. Woman have increased in graduates over taking men by 55% to 45%. Hm, and I live to see a black president. I can tell my kids I voted in that election. Damn, im off on a tangent again.

Class remember-

So its 10:47 damn almost out for clas to be out . time. Time. Time a whole another subject. Right Gabriel?
Yes of course professor I agree with verbatim (I state verbatim) I wonder doesn’t everyone have a duel prosses? Surely.

(p.s. i understand there is grammer errors i stand by them.)

opens your eyes . i knelt before everything great. took a breathed and waklked into the land of kings and there i took throne amongst kings. king of kings.

in the next coming years technology will rise. In the recent history this has proven true and yet to hold more true in the coming present. I am incline to lean towards science, but understand that even science is no truth. Yet i underpress my philosophic side to understand why it work, and simply live in the how it works. Im not giving up forever, just till i have more power. till i gain more levearage.
i dont know all the rules of this world, or how it workds, or everything. As i have stated, i know nothing. But from that littlke nothing i do know, from the littkle bit of sand, i shall try to create a beach, a world. I often think my ambitious thought are to wild and high, yet there are time i feel i have not aimed high enough or that i have underestimated.
But like i said i know nothing and im young enough to beleive in the impossible. So with all the crazy pupil open things i have seen or dont understand i set out for a higher life. A different style. and while i write all this i feel a doubt, a feeling that i am wrong that i have no idea what im talking about. that i am simply spurting out what is propagonda of the american dream at its best.
i end this with a spirit or rather a beleif in success. i am. i am. i am everything that was and ever will be. i am. i be. i will become. i have become. i aleady am. i already was. i am all. ALL has come to to me. i am me. and suddenly i am loss in a bliss of self blurring into one persona one entity.

i have experienced the world for the first time. everytime is the first time. I am a man who lives to understand and yet i felt over whelmed to the fact that i feel i cannot understand the world. today the world seem to big for even me.

i have always been a man who thinks big and thinks he needs to think bigger yet today i felt lonely and scared and fragile. I felt as if my life was just so small to conquer this world. 

there are countires i have not visted, homes i do not yet live in, cars i have not yet driven. I know that these things do not matter, life is not about these things.

but i have come to beleive that is all that is left to matter. i know it doesnt, its becuase i know that it doesnt matter that i think like this. I see people living where i want to be and still feel sadness. maybe i will never find my peice, because i know it doesnt not reside in the material yet seem to undiscipline to live now.

the world should spin, yet the world has failed. we have failed. In this day of age we have created a world that only 100 years ago we could consider sci fi. We now hold the power to see into the future, expressed through an entrpenuer's vistion, or an Edision, or a J. F. Kennedy. We the world, have brought the world technology, math, spaceships, internet, mobiles and other brilliant idea wheather concrete or abstract.. ideas that spins the world... yet we have failed.

i propose a new a day. A NEW AGE. we are the choose generation, WE are the choosen kind. Man Kind. We have suceeded where no other known species has suceed, a social structure, diversifcation, and evolution that no other species has achieved. I beleive it is time we take a seat on our throne. WE have the powe to stop death, to replicate life and to expand beyond a marble planet in a bag infinite.

detach moral, ethical, or religious purpose for mintue in order to view this subject from out of the box. As you understand and see this concept from an airplane view we seperate from our little minds attachments of meaning and lifes meaning and we expand into a world that can actually produce survivors. A species who beat nature, a species who took a seat with God and felt equal. I mean this in no form blastfimus for thus of holy natures, but rather to see that through our own power, we can insure our on heven our own paradise, incase that which amegedon is suppose to bring fails on arrivals. Incase the world spins long enough that we have detch ourselves completely from there is a creator through generations and post modern cepts that make us the creator perhaps hoping that this in itself can hold high enough a value for the aritech or nature itself, so that if it may be so kind as to share their secrets. The secrets of questions which we all ask and feel yet can produce no valid answer.

When we can become bore with the idea of exploring all that was and ever will be. When we reach perfection and then ask what now. Then we have suceeded. Then we have fufilled our own shoes our own destiny. A destiny fufilled and created by man.

the voice in my head

that voice inside your head. that voice we hear, that dictates ur, control us. Recently i have watched a movie and read a book dealing with the inner voice inside. In these sources they expklain the inside as ego and a voice that has been there for so long that we beleive it to be us. it dictates us, when we're talking to another person, it creates our experiences. This voice is a seperate part of us, the part that isnt listening in a conversation. the voice that pretends and falls into this role playing when speaking to another human, only kinda being there while our ego driftts.

The Secret & What the Bleep Do we know

my title are two great movies. although the secret tends to lean towrds a motivational and spirtual video it holds many truths. What the bleep do we know iks another movies that ties into the secret although they have no correlation in diretors. What the bleep do we know seems to have the sdame message only through science.. more accuretly at the quatum level.

These two video shows that the universe bends to you. If i want something bad enough, really want it, thinks of it night and day with unrelentless faith it shall manifest itself. I believe this and although i beleive there formulkas to be slightly off or incomplete i think i can have all that was and ever will be.

you can view clips of these movies on youtube to further understand these blogs

there are no problems only situations

there are no problems only situations. i often forget my keys & friends get annoyed at my forgetfulness. after a friend kept bothering me explain that because i forget my keys sometimes good things happen. things he is unaware of..

later i was reading and a story explained what i ment. a couple going to the air port forgot their keys. do to the extra time taken to find the keys and go the couple mis there flight. they were very angry till the heard there flight crashed with no survivors.